P.S Sorry if this made no sense. I had a tight bun on my head. It might have cut the blood and oxygen circulation in my brain. hehe whatever. I just had to share this little tidbit of knowledge that my cousin gave me. She's awesome. I love her and even if she never gets married or anything, she'll still be my number one loved cousin. :)
Thursday, 29 January 2015
The Unrecognized Blessing of Having a Complete Family
My cousin told me a secret. She told me that one of the reasons she had recognized why she has never had a boyfriend was that she grew up without a mom. Her mom left her when she was just 3 to go to the US to work, and had only visited her once or twice after. Of course she has other substitutes like my many aunts who didn't get married and still lived in the family home, but it's just isn't the same. She's 26 now and she has never had a boyfriend because her heart is fragile. She's afraid to commit because she doesn't want to experience the heartbreak and being left because the one person who was supposed to love her unconditionally and never leave her, left. That's absolutely heartbreaking. Thing is, she still loves her mom even if she left her. She can't help it. All kids have that innate love for their parents, even if they are sad excuses for parents. My cousin can attest to that. But this saddens her. And I can't relate because I have a complete family and feel all the love I need and more. I never saw it in that way before. I never realized how lucky I was that I have a complete family. She made me realize the impact of family to our own lives even when we're adults already. She said now that she has recognized this fact, she's trying to get past it so she can love herself and let other people love her. Her first boyfriend might as well be her last because her heart might not be able to take another heartbreak but that first and last love will be true,whole, and beautiful.
Saturday, 10 January 2015
A Letter to My Future Husabnd
This was inspired by a British Youtuber's video about his letter to his future wife. His name is Will Darbyshire and I absolutely adore his craft because it's not the typical Youtuber content. They're thought about and that's just amazing.
Hello I'm Toni.
And you're going to marry someday. I don't know if I know you already or not but let's just go with it for now. I don't have a lot of expectations because I'm young and quite frankly inexperienced in life and love. I have absolutely no clue as of now. But I hope and think that you'll have a passion and love for something and talk about it animatedly, so much so that I see it in your perspective. I think you'll be intelligent because you know, I want smart kids and deep conversations. And I think you'll regard everyone with respect and dignity so that people also have the same respect for you. You don't have to be rich, just not lazy because that doesn't roll well with me.
You'll have these unique humor and idiosyncrasies about yourself like fiddling with something in your hands when you're nervous or dancing to whatever band you like and not having a care about what other people think because you're having the time of your life, all these things will make you, YOU.
I hope that your family likes me (especially your mom cause she's the most important woman of your life) even if I'm not your usual type and I don't always understand their ways. If we really want to be together and if it's meant to be, it'll work out anyway right?
Don't worry my dad doesn't have a gun and he's a real softie. Just don't hurt me, that'll unleash some things you don't really want to know. My brothers are quite protective but once you win them over, they'll probably have tons of embarrassing stories about me to tell you so that you can make me blush and stuff. My mommy's my queen, treat her like you treat your mother and she'll treat you like her own child. She's quite like me but maybe not as fussy and way prettier(or so she says) but other than that you got it pretty easy.
It's weird that you actually exist and might actually read this from wherever you are. I wouldn't know right now. You could be anyone actually and rocking what you do best while I do my own thing too.
Stay safe. Take care of yourself. And try to wait for me and stuff because you know I might shy away sometimes and build walls but I'll open up. Keep an eye out for me and I'll see you when I see you. Future husband, just remember, I'll love you to the moon and back and maybe even more so don't think you're worthless or that no one loves you because I object!
Love,
Your Future Wife
P.S. Please be funnier than I am because I'm almost always just accidentally funny. Also, please be active because then I'll want to keep up and not be a lazy bum. I hope you're into short girls cause I don't think I'll grow a whole lot from 5'2. Sorry(in advance) if I can't do stuff properly because I'm left handed. I promise I'll do my best and see you in the future, my love.
Hello I'm Toni.
And you're going to marry someday. I don't know if I know you already or not but let's just go with it for now. I don't have a lot of expectations because I'm young and quite frankly inexperienced in life and love. I have absolutely no clue as of now. But I hope and think that you'll have a passion and love for something and talk about it animatedly, so much so that I see it in your perspective. I think you'll be intelligent because you know, I want smart kids and deep conversations. And I think you'll regard everyone with respect and dignity so that people also have the same respect for you. You don't have to be rich, just not lazy because that doesn't roll well with me.
You'll have these unique humor and idiosyncrasies about yourself like fiddling with something in your hands when you're nervous or dancing to whatever band you like and not having a care about what other people think because you're having the time of your life, all these things will make you, YOU.
I hope that your family likes me (especially your mom cause she's the most important woman of your life) even if I'm not your usual type and I don't always understand their ways. If we really want to be together and if it's meant to be, it'll work out anyway right?
Don't worry my dad doesn't have a gun and he's a real softie. Just don't hurt me, that'll unleash some things you don't really want to know. My brothers are quite protective but once you win them over, they'll probably have tons of embarrassing stories about me to tell you so that you can make me blush and stuff. My mommy's my queen, treat her like you treat your mother and she'll treat you like her own child. She's quite like me but maybe not as fussy and way prettier(or so she says) but other than that you got it pretty easy.
It's weird that you actually exist and might actually read this from wherever you are. I wouldn't know right now. You could be anyone actually and rocking what you do best while I do my own thing too.
Stay safe. Take care of yourself. And try to wait for me and stuff because you know I might shy away sometimes and build walls but I'll open up. Keep an eye out for me and I'll see you when I see you. Future husband, just remember, I'll love you to the moon and back and maybe even more so don't think you're worthless or that no one loves you because I object!
Love,
Your Future Wife
P.S. Please be funnier than I am because I'm almost always just accidentally funny. Also, please be active because then I'll want to keep up and not be a lazy bum. I hope you're into short girls cause I don't think I'll grow a whole lot from 5'2. Sorry(in advance) if I can't do stuff properly because I'm left handed. I promise I'll do my best and see you in the future, my love.
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