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This is a rant because my brother was an asshole to me. This might have a lot of fire because I'm fucking angry. I am 18 years old. I am 5'2". I am 170 lbs. That's to get it out of the way. YES. I am fat. Overweight. Obese, even. That's me.
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I'm fat. FACT.
I should lose weight. FACT
I need to stick to a regime for things to actually work. FACT(and important)
BUT,
that doesn't mean, I'm ugly.
that doesn't mean, I'm less of a person.
that doesn't mean, I'm going to just take it when people talk shit about me.
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A while ago, my brother asked me:
"How can you look at yourself in front of the mirror when you look like that?"
I shot him down. (Don't worry, I'm not the type to cower.)
I told him:
"I can look at myself in front of the mirror because I know that there is more to me than just what you can see in front of a mirror."
He backed down a bit but still had the nerve to add:
"But wouldn't it be nice to look good?"
I said:
"Physical appearance doesn't amount to much if you go out in the real world"
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Why I was so pissed?
It irked me because my younger brother said that in front of my other brother and 2 ladies who we don't know.
If you wanted to talk trash, you should have just told me. You don't have to share it to the whole world.
Another reason why I was pissed is because he has never been fat in his life so he doesn't know how hard it is to lose weight.
This "tough love" shit you're pulling is not working. If anything, you're cultivating a negative energy that makes it hard to be motivated and encouraged.
Lastly, it pissed me that just because he's naturally smarter and looks better, he can talk shit.
FUCK NO. YOU'RE A FUCKING ASSHOLE WHO'S SO DAMN PROUD. YOUR PRIDE IS SO FUCKING HIGH, I DON'T KNOW HOW IT REACHED THAT HIGH. YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO SAY THAT AND BRINGING PEOPLE DOWN WON'T MAKE YOU LOOK ANY MORE ATTRACTIVE.
I can look at myself in the mirror because I'm not ashamed of myself, I can honestly say, I kinda love myself. I love the person I am and I don't need you to tell me I'm ugly and fat.
You make it so hard for me to love you even if you're my brother. All you care about is that everyone in the family is supposed to look picture perfect. Tell you what, a picture is worth a thousand words and each person will look at a picture differently so trying to fit into a "perfect" spectrum will not do anything.
I'm unique. I'm me.
I will lose weight. I will do it because I want to NOT because I listened to all the shit thrown at me. I want to be a healthy person. Mentally, physically and emotionally.
FUCK WHAT THE SOCIETY THINKS.
My contributions in this world is not going to measured on what I look like and what I see in the mirror.
I can do way better than that.
