SC#2. B: Being a Burden to People

I hate being a burden to people. I like to do things myself because that way, I don't bother anyone, even if that means that I'll have to do things the hard way. I suffer of course, but at least I don't have to worry about owing anyone a favor. I know not all people will think that way, there are actually some nice people but most of the people I know will count all the things they've done for me and will enumerate them when the want help so they blackmail me into it. And I don't like that so I go out of my way to do things on my own and only ask for help when absolutely necessary. I must like well enough if I am able to ask you to do something for me or I'm just pretty dang desperate to get things done. I know I won't be able to keep this up because it's tiring and it's not living the right way. We need people in our lives to help us get through things. People who love me will not see me as a burden but a person who just needs a little help, a little push to be able to do the right thing and the best thing. 

SC #1. A: A Temperament Test

My friend found this book in the school library that was entitled Personality Plus(don't quote me on that) and it said that knowing your personality/temperament will help you deal with things so much easier than if you don't know what your temperament is. And there are 4 types of temperaments: SANGUINE, MELANCHOLIC, PHLEGMATIC, and CHOLERIC. Of course, no person is perfectly in just one temperament so I had to take a test that went like this: there are 4 word in a row and you have to choose which word adequately describes you the most and you write it down(there were descriptions at the back to help in making the correct choice in picking the word). You go through 40 numbers and after you tally the choices you make because each of those 4 words correspond to a temperament. You have to get the two top temperaments that you get and that's what you are(temperament wise). The result of my test was phlegmatic-melancholic which is a natural blend. Phlegmatic people are usually casual, laid-back, mediator, silent workers, a bit lazy, avoids conflict, etc. Melancholic people are analytical, detail oriented, perfectionists, easily depressed, etc. I think it was pretty accurate and it was far from the other 2 temperaments. My top was phlegmatic then melancholic then sanguine and lastly, choleric. I already knew from the start that I was not going to be choleric because people with choleric temperament are defined as a leaders, people who want to get their way, like to push people, and spearhead things and I do not see myself like that at all.I also saw why I was not a sanguine person in the test because sanguine people are bubbly, spontaneous,and like to be the life of the party and being around people, and can't keep still on doing just one task. While I am trying to become more outgoing and bubbly, I know that it is something that I have to work on and psych myself to before I actually go and do it. I'm just naturally phlegmatic and melancholic. And I accept that and now I know where I excel and where I need to work on so that I can be more flexible as I get older and time calls for it.

P.S. That's for temperament. For personality type I think I'm INTP or ISTP. They're both pretty rare especially for women but that's just me.

Summer Challenge

Other than getting thinner in the summer, I will be challenging myself to write more. I've been so busy and now that I have some time on my hands, I think I should use it wisely and write/type up things so that my creative juice don't go to waste, after all I'll have more time to do it because I'll have a new and improved laptop soon. But there's a catch in the next post to come, they have to be in alphabetical order and I cannot post something that isn't the following letter. I'm pretty sure I'll have fun thinking up of titles for the hard letters because I like challenges and I think I'll be proud of myself if I am able to be witty with my titles. Moreover, I think that this will be hard to follow but this will help the melancholic side of me show instead of just being a phlegmatic girl who likes to just do whatever. 

P.S. It's prom tomorrow night and I'll be wearing a red dress, I'm kind of excited and kind of not. I can't decide. I'll try to post a pic of the dress if ever. xx