Being from an all girl's school entering into a university that is coed, I knew I was bound to get a bit of culture shock. At first everything was okay because all of us were the adjusting so it was fair battle ground but when we're 3 months in, true colors start to show.
My guy best friend got pissed with me because I was not talking to him. I wasn't talking to him cause I was in a bad mood and I didn't want to pour the all the bad vibes I had on him but he misinterpreted it and lashed out on me. He decided to give me silent treatment. I wasn't that affected because I had other friends from groups but I still said sorry cause I felt I owed it to him because he was just pissed because I was just being silent which isn't my usual demeanor.
I was having a bad week. I lost my ID and I had to pay just to get in school and go to school. My allowance that week was less because I had 2 consecutive long weekends and I just had to shell out money from my own savings just to be able to get me through the week. Furthermore, I lost my expanding file that had all my Math stuff and my newly bought yellow pad. And I had to go to the mall late at night to get my picture taken and shit. I was one big ball of stress and I knew that if I started talking I'd just break down and I would just flip shit.
He didn't seem to get that so that night I felt super bad but I had to overlook that because I had an English presentation to get ready for and shit and I couldn't just bail on that just because I felt bad. I have to separate personal life from the academic life. My guy best friend was giving me shit though on Twitter. He was sending indirects and fuck I felt bad.
I decided to give him space though. I ate with other people and when they asked why I was eating with them instead of my bestfriend, I told them my story and one of them was about to punch my best friend but I stopped him because it wouldn't do anything to help the situation. Another friend told me that his prediction was coming true because he told me beforehand that my best friend and I were only friends now because we have a group of friends as a clique.
I was considering it but I had to focus on myself first. I just went on going to class and getting things done but at the end of the day, my best friend called me out and gave me a hug and a tear leaked out of my eye and all was forgiven. If I told my brothers this, they'd be seething but I didn't cause I didn't want it to get any bigger but all's well ends well.
I love being coed but damn it's complicated and now I have to consider that men are a bit dense and need to be told straight up what you're trying to do so that they don't lash out.
ANYWAY I'M 18 TODAY! I'M LEGAL. DOESN'T FEEL THAT DIFFERENT THOUGH. I JUST WANT TO GET THROUGH FIRST YEAR IN UNIVERSITY. UGH. I WANT TO BE IN THE DEAN'S LIST. :(
