First Type of Falling Out: The No Turning Back.
This type of falling out happened with my guy friend who was super close to me and one day I wasn't having a good day and I just kept quiet, something he didn't like. He took it as ignoring and he lashed out on me. After that, it was so much easier to pick fights with him and see all his shortcomings(mostly because other people were also mentioning it). He talked to me about it but I was already noncommittal, I did not was to waste the time of day to argue with him or make things blow up if it did not need to. I don't trust him anymore and I guess I kind of stopped talking to him. I'll never see him as a person to confide to and I don't have hard feelings over it anymore. I can be civil but I cannot be the same old person who will let someone lash out on me just because of my nature.
Second Type of Falling Out: The Graver but More Forgivable
This type of falling out happened with a guy friend who I super enjoy the company of and really value my friendship with. But he did something to me that made me bawl out my eyes. He said that I was slutty and I should stop using him to get with his friend. He said he hated me and never wanted to speak to me again. And we didn't talk for a month. It was pure torture and I had times when I really wanted to talk to him or laugh at his jokes but I wanted to keep my promise in not telling anyone about the rift and not talking to him so I kept my mouth shut. After a month,he called me up and told me meet him somewhere and when we met he engulfed me in a hug and really told what he felt and was really sorry about all the stuff he said out of anger, and I didn't even give him a hard time. I forgave him then and there, I forgave him a long time ago. Of course, it's still not super fixed especially because my mom told me to be more careful because it might happen again but we're on our way there and I have no doubts that he is a real friend who I can trust and really be myself with.
Am I biased? Maybe so. But can you blame me?
These things can't be avoided though. People come and go and we should hold on to the people who we know will make us grow and be with us in the ups and downs of life. I'm still really close to girls though. I have yet to have a male best friend that can be as close to me as my female best friends. Of course, it's really hard and maybe only my husband can fit that criterion.
P.S. Disclaimer: I do not like any of the boy romantically, I just see them as friends and I have a crush on someone who's so much more suited for me (I think hahaha)
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