A lot of people who know me don't actually know me. I always have my walls up and ready to keep people out so that they don't have the power to break my heart. I'm scared of letting myself show because then I'll be more vulnerable and I'll end up hurt. This is the reason why most people don't know that I'm actually a very excitable person. I love trying new things and I learn things without people noticing. I only show people how good I can be when it's actually needed. Occasionally, I'll slip though. When we were playing a game and it was the last few seconds and we knew we could win, I started jumping up and down, cheering my team mates on, in hopes of making them move faster so we win the game. I was having so much fun cheering them on and being happy that but then I saw people staring at me like I grew another head. So I stopped. I'd rather be quiet and have no one look at me than be loud and have everyone look at me. When I'm your friend, I'll always be rejoicing inside for your victories but on the outside, I'll be silent. I hate having to keep it in but my excitement is too intense for people who know me to see. They'll think of me differently.
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